By Kurt Perez
Who are you, really?
Throughout the holidays, I ponder what we give when we hand our loved ones presents. A sincere present is an extension of your love for that person. A material object is just the vehicle in which it is expressed. Contrarily, those who give or expect presents with superficial intentions aim to inflate egos, not hearts. In relationships, it is prevalent to create an identity that is not genuine. We build masks that hide our true self. We put up a façade, losing the opportunity to put in effort that a relationship entails through personal growth. This is expressed subtly through various ways: making you older or younger, taller or shorter, heavier or skinnier.
In February, we are filled with the excitement of expressing love and romance. If you are single, the pangs of solitude may urge you to seek a partner. If in a relationship, Valentine’s Day is an opportunity to display emotions and your appreciation through gifts or a nice dinner. The materialistic aspect of your relationship becomes highlighted during this time of the month and so does your identity. As you are sitting at the table at dinner or enjoying a movie with your partner, does your partner truly know you? Have you vastly exaggerated your flaws and virtues? Have you created a mask or have you presented your genuine identity?
Presenting your genuine identity lies primarily in acceptance. Acceptance of who we are is usually sought outwardly. As we encounter different people in our lives, we begin to adapt to what people consider socially acceptable. The history of the LGBT community across the globe shows the antagonistic speculations made by those who do not understand our sexual orientation. According to the American Psychological Association, sexual orientation “refers to the sex of those to whom one is sexually and romantically attracted.” This has been stigmatized as morally and even divinely wrong if you are LGBT. The constant discrimination in LGBT history reverberates till this very day. People still look at us like we are the plague and it is this very notion that makes acceptance difficult. While standing in front of that mirror, the only person looking back at you is you. Acceptance needs to come from within so that you are able to fully understand, love and care for another human being.
Inner acceptance leads to confidence while poor self-image leads to disappointment, tempting us to change when there truly is no need to change.
On September 29, 2014, Palo Alto University released an article written by Kimberly F. Balsam titled, “A Multifactor Lesbian, Gay, and Bisexual Positive Identity Measure” where Balsam explains that “at the most basic level, to have a positive identity is to feel good… about oneself.” Balsam mentions that it is positive identity that even “contributes to psychological good health and enhances social functioning, our flourishing.” Specifically, Balsam digs deeper and identifies that “LGB identity is an individual identity within a social context, linking individuals to others with similar experiences” which provides insight on two important facts: whether you are heterosexual or LGBT, positive and negative identity affects us all and that in order to better understand and accept ourselves we need to analyze our position in relation to those who share our community. Numerous interviews conducted in Meridian, Boise and Nampa resulted in the unanimous agreement that in order to be in a long-lasting relationship, you have to accept and love yourself. A straight couple in Nampa states that homophobia is one of the causes that LGBT men and women refuse to shed their skin and reveal their true self. A gay couple in Boise state that they have felt threatened, hated and discriminated against which caused them to hate who they truly were for many years.
The LGBT and straight community alike agree that the only way to love is by being genuine and true to yourself.
During this holiday season, before kissing your beloved or hugging your most precious friends, hug and kiss yourself first. Come back to this article a million times if you have to and remind yourself to be genuine at all times. A genuine identity will assure you that it does not matter if you are not tall, skinny, old or young enough. The best gift you can give yourself this Valentines is the courage to be yourself.